Start loving

2010-11-19T18:39:00.000+08:00

Been a long long time... ever since i felt this way. Im useless,i cant control my emotions well. I suck.

2010-11-19T18:30:00.002+08:00

#thingsgirlswantboystodo I still love you please come back to me.

2010-11-19T18:24:00.001+08:00

"You cant hurt some who feels nothing special for you."

"You cant be hurt by anyone else unless that person is special for you."

2010-11-19T18:22:00.000+08:00

No matter how much you tell yourself how much youre over someone... Only your heart knows the truth. I took too long to realize this.

2010-11-19T18:21:00.001+08:00

My heart is dead, im as good as dead.

2010-11-18T19:20:00.004+08:00

I FUCKING HATE NOW. I FUCKING HATE NOW. I FUCKING HATE NOW I FUCKING HATE NOW I HATE NOW I HATE NOW I HATE NOW I HATE NOW I HATE NOW I HATE EVERYTHING THAT IS AROUND ME

2010-07-13T11:19:00.002+08:00

Hi guys. Been a long time........ Im doing good, outta job and school-less as usual.

13.05.2010

2010-05-20T22:08:00.002+08:00

TOO MUCH HAD HAPPENED TO ME. I NEED A BREAK FROM ALL THESE SHIT NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-04-25T21:59:00.000+08:00

Hi, am i your Angel?

2010-04-25T18:37:00.002+08:00

When you know you've been trying your best for some things you want and it doesnt go your way, thats when you'll realize he's not the right one for you.

I feel so unappreciated. Humans should learn how to be more appreciative sometimes.

BEAT THAT

2010-04-14T05:36:00.003+08:00

Mid April

2010-04-14T05:05:00.005+08:00

YES ITS MID APRIL ALREADY AND IM STILL JOBLESS............ HOLY CRAP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Talk is cheap la, i can just say anything i want. Been saying the same stuff for the past half a yr and its still not happening. Good job and well done!
PH-ing every week is not helping, but most importantly i had fun. Thats how i fucking spend my days.. My good 6 months are gone with the wind, just like that. Poooooof. Now im gonna promise myself not to repeat the same thing again until i really find one.

....................PICTURES OF SOME BEAUTIFUL GIRLS AT PH ON WED...........................

No drinks go club for fuck?

My eyeliner sibei thick. BUT I LIKE,WHAT YOU WANNA DO?

OK PH TMR AGAIN.GOODNIGHT.

2010-04-06T06:46:00.002+08:00

I cant imagine myself having a family of my own.
Cant imagine myself having kids in the future.
Cant imagine myself being a mom.
How do i even take care of my kids when i cant even take care of myself?
How do i cook meals?
How do i wash the clothes?
TEACH ME HOW?

Putting myself into my mom's shoes right now, i doubt i can even take it. Babies' cries... Was wondering how the hell she even did it. She's amazing, really. I'm proud that my mom's such an amazing woman. It seemed so simple, but it isnt.

So.... When's my turn? Time is killing me slowly. DIE LA!!!!!

2010-03-21T18:17:00.002+08:00

YOU'RE MY EYE CANDY NOW NOW NOW NOW NOW!

2010-02-18T06:02:00.001+08:00

I want a nose job. And ya, quit your insults.

2010-02-06T07:42:00.001+08:00

There's so much in my head. I cant believe im facing some family shit right now, maybe not but i consider it as one.

I'm going 20.... Cant my parents just accept me for who im instead of asking me to change?

2010-02-02T05:47:00.001+08:00

This is so morning madness. I just got lectured by my dad at 5 in the morning!!!

What is wrong with enlarging my earlobes? I know i'm a girl and it isn't nice for me to do that,but still.... Thats how i appreciate body art and i love it. Why cant he just understand and let me do the things i wanna do, and putting himself in my shoe that i wont go overboard by having sleeve even though i really want one real badly. I have already put myself in his shoes, knowing that he cares thats why he's talking to me bout it. But its really unfair when my dad keep bringing up the past, because we all live in the present y'know. Why did he even threaten to not call him 'Dad' anymore? He just wants the best outta me. I'm sharing how i feel from both points of views just in case anyone thinks i'm selfish.

I have to admit that i shouldn't be taking anymore allowance from my parents because i'm already 20, but still... I dont have a choice right now. I'm jobless and i know i should find a fucking job and support myself instead. My teenage life is ending real soon uh, a 2 at the front of my age isn't considered young anymore.. Thats part of the reason im partying and enjoying my life at this moment before i cant do it any time soon. Im not making my problem my parents' problem you see.. I just wanna have fun now as life's short and we cant predict whats gonna happen in the future. Who knows i might just die tomorrow when crossing the road or get fucking smashed by flower pot while beside some blocks.

This whole fuss is made up because of my earlobes. I hope my dad can be more understanding in a way that i actually wanted to do something bout my life, support every decision i make and isnt this what all parents are supposed to do? I mean supporting the right decision, instead of making up excuses to everything i say even though it really does make sense and true. It might not be the decision that he'll support but at least give me some time to explain myself and dont condemn me just like that.

2010-02-02T04:32:00.003+08:00

I wish i could express myself in a better way rather than just words. I hate and love myself being a bummer the whole time, how irony. I would really love to find a full time job but my laziness is stopping me all the time. School will only start in July so wtf am i supposed to do for the rest of these six months if i cant find any job?!!!

P/s. LOVE KL!!!!!

2010-01-28T23:50:00.002+08:00

Hi pigs. Happy 2010!

I WANT A SKATEBOARD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

:O

2009-12-24T10:20:00.004+08:00

Morningz! And merry xmas in advance!!

2008 is coming to an end in like 8 days, and tomorrow's Xmas and im gonnna party it away at Kendra's. Hope its a smashing one this year,definitely not gonna spend my xmas under some void deck alone like last year. FUCKING LOSER FUCK :(

So........ Dear Santa, would be grant me my wish? I mother fucking want to slim down. TAKE AWAY THE FATS FROM ME!!!!!! And i want to go back to November! :(

Been feeling rather empty nowadays. I can space out almost anytime and anywhere. For a moment, i thought my life was great.. Because i have been having my fun ever since i quit school in July till now, at the same time thinking whether this is a good or a bad thing. K fuck it, i want to trip now. Spacing out from Earth to Mars will be good.

And this is for you.

To tell you the truth I don’t have much to offer. But I’ll still give you everything I’ve got, even if it’s barely a thing at all. I’ll give you late nights, long hugs. Someone to talk to, someone to care for, someone who will always be there. A hand to hold, somebody to lean on. And if that’s not enough, just know you have all of me. I hope that’s enough.

OKAY BYE.

Sundae ice cream

2009-12-13T17:45:00.006+08:00

Good evening Sunday!! My lucky colour today is yallow.

Its the end of the week again. And two more weeks to go, awaits a new year. TIME WAITS FOR NO ONE MAN. AND YES, IT WAS ZOUKOUT LAST NIGHT AND GUESS WHAT? I CANT BELIEVE I ACTUALLY FUCKING MISSED IT!!!! I SWEAR IM GONNA GO NEXT YEAR,I WILL. >:( ONE MORE YEAR ONE MORE YEAR!!!!

And say hi to my new friend under my lips.

Hi 2010.

2009-12-10T00:52:00.003+08:00

Hi world, been missing out pretty much whats on the net. Was busy working at homeclub, and doing gooooood. Even though i'm only working once a week, but it's better for me as well. Which means enough time to meet up with my babies and do other stuff! LIFE IS GOOD!!!!!!

Speaking bout the good things, people forgot bout the time. You wont care much bout time when your life's good and yes, i just remembered the year is coming to an end.So say hello 2010, goodbye to 2009! Time passes really fast and things change. So much had happened, so many things had changed. I can look back at the memories that are left,yet cant get any back from it.

So many things to do, so much to say, yet so little time. I miss the rest of my girls, i miss spending time with them, even if it's only a few hours meet up, when we'll all laugh our hearts out over the slightest things. In fact, i miss everyone who were once close to me. Never would i thought i will lose them,but i still did. Its true, time changes everything. Maybe it's just me, i dont find any need to talk to those whom i want to keep in my life everyday because i believe in those who came and never left.......

Anywayyyyyyyyyyyy, xmas's coming and i cant wait. PARTY @ KENDRA BABY'S PLACE!!!!!!!!!! DRINK DRANK AND HIGH WILL DO. And wow, tomorrow's me, ju's and bev's anniversary. Happy 1st year babies......................SEEYOU GUYS TOMORROW. We'll have our fun.

xoxo

\/\/

2009-11-29T02:43:00.001+08:00

Yo whats up, i spent the past two days over at the west and it was GREAT AND AWESOME.

<3

2009-11-12T23:21:00.004+08:00

Hi all, i've been through the lowest point of life and i'm glad i'm finally done with it.

Life's been a bitch after i started skipping school and eventually not even going school at all without giving any notice. Spent most of my time in the clubs drinking and smoking my life away.... Cant imagine how much money and precious time i've wasted throughout. Could have done better and more useful stuff with that amount of time and money. Am happy and touched my teacher called, to give me another chance to continue my next half module the next year, from where i've stopped. I found a job, and i'm feeling proud of it. I dont really club much nowadays and i'm happy bout it as well. This may just be a slight change in my life but at least this is the very point of life that i actually feel proud because im really doing something bout it. And i'm home tonight,typing this. I wanna thank those who made an impact in my life by spending so much time and effort trying to change me, yet i took this long to realize only till then. You guys know who you are and thank you. And for those whom i disappoint, i'm truely sorry bout it and i'm changing. Everyone deserves a second chance.

To the very you whom i dont wanna lose, i wont give up on you. No matter how much time youre gonna take to change, its alright. I've all the time in the world just for you because i care.

2009-10-26T11:49:00.000+08:00

I'm sick of all the shit that had happened and still happening.

2009-10-06T09:57:00.000+08:00

I feel like joining Spore Idol for fun next yr leh. Hahahaha

2009-10-06T09:15:00.002+08:00

Good morning world, i'm having a very serious insomnia these days.

School's starting for everyone, i feel like an idiot because i dont have school. I wanna go poly,but i'm too stupid to enter any of it...............................FUCK.

BYE

2009-10-06T00:16:00.002+08:00

I miss the old me. The time whereby im so enthu bout school, the time when i worked very hard for money and the time when i can get anything i want.

Life's so short for me, and if you knew today was my last day on Earth, I WILL ROB THE WEAKEST ON THE STREETS. KILL ANY COCKROACHES AND BEETLES I SEE AND LET THEM PERISH BEFORE I DO. I sleep too much, and im talking nonsense. I want to eat, im hungry.

Nothing is impossible, i know i can do it, one day.

2009-09-25T05:54:00.002+08:00

I made a wish.

2009-08-19T18:25:00.004+08:00
How i miss those times we had. The good one ones, the times that we'll be seen together everywhere we go. The times when we told each other we'll be forever, the best that had ever happened to us. After you're gone for so long, only then i realised that i still miss you, everything we once had.

Somehow somewhat, the different lifestyle we lead tore us apart. We're still talking now...but i still miss those times when we used to be bffs, A.

-

I havent been in school for 5 days, so what now? There's so much in my head.

Every night before i head to bed, i'll tell myself that i must go school and this goes on and on for like more than a month already? And i'm still not doing anything bout it. I'm so fucking irresponsible and lazy and it's making me go crazy. There're times when we'll realize the mistakes we've done, yet we're not doing anything. I feel damn useless and hopeless every now and then when i'm being reminded of it. I'm 19, going 20 next year. Not considered old, but not young anymore. Others have dreams and goals, and i dont have any. I'm afraid to try or even dream bout it. It sucks.

Tell me tell me tell me tell me tell me tell me tell me what should i do!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :'(

It's finally over.

2009-08-16T06:39:00.002+08:00

For the past two days, I had the worst days ever.

Firstly, my teacher called and complained to my mom bout my school stuff, wanting her to sign some form to kick me outta the course. "I suggest you ask her to stop wasting her time in school since she comes to school as and when she likes." Thennnnnnnnn, i accidentally dropped that pinky new phone i had while trying to charge it, thats when i realized it was spoiled when someone tried to call me and i cant hear a single shit. It's less than 2 months old wtf. Partied and drunk too much at rebel at that very night made me felt like a total loser, asking the whole fucking world 101 whys. Had a fucking headache and thank god i managed to fall asleeep, and yes, i woke up with my head spinning me right rounds. (Y)

Went Ju's place to collect my uniform before work. AMK TO BEDOK THEN TO BOONLAY.
I WANTED TO TAKE A BUS TO THE NEAREST TRAIN STATION FROM BEDOK AND I MISSED THE BUS STOP AND ENDED UP TAKING A CAB TO BL INSTEAD. AND I WAS FUCKING 1 HOUR LATE FOR WORK. Pay deducted and they still want me to stay there for an extra hour. Totally made my day, really.

Rebel-ed made me felt better and thank goodness it's finally over. I'm a happy girl now. Goodnight.

So much to do, yet so little time

2009-08-07T15:06:00.000+08:00

It's Friday today, and i skipped school again. When can i get back the enthusiasm i had during the beginning of the year when the course first started?! HELP ME HELP ME HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!! ;(

Anyway, i somehow figured out my plans for the future when Kendra called yesterday. At the very least i'm doing something bout it right now.

2009-08-06T16:44:00.000+08:00
Loss for words.

Heart felt thoughts

2009-08-04T23:46:00.000+08:00

There's so much on my mind nowadays.....

Been really stressed up with school stuff, the theory work is piling up and it's getting harder and harder day by day. I only have myself to blame for skipping lessons and now that my teacher is gonna kick me outta the course, i feel upset and disappointed for having that i-cant-be-bothered kinda attitude. I left class in the middle of the lesson today just like that. Why!!!! I thought i was determined to finish up the course and get good grades.. I thought i could be the outstanding one in class because i'm the oldest and i SHOULD be the best. I gave my words to both the teacher and my parents that i will really work hard and strive for the best when they gave me so so many chances, but what happened to me now? My whole mind is filled with everything that is of my satisfaction; partying and boozing my weekends away, meeting new friends, and hoping i could find someone i like. To me, the meaning of life now is just bout HAVING FUN. I am like spending my life hopelessly and aimlessly away, and yes i am aware of it,yet i'm still doing it. How ironic. At times, i thought of giving school up but what the hell am i gonna do after that? I failed big time by doing badly for my O's and did a mistake for choosing Lasalle instead of getting into a Poly. Now that my mom had wasted almost 3K$ on me for NOTHING,she gave me another chance when i wanted to study again. WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG NOW IS I DONT WANNA QUIT SCHOOL AND END UP REGRETTING AGAIN. I DONT WANT TO BE LOOKED DOWN ON. I WANNA BE SOMEONE WHO IS SUCCESSFUL IN LIFE,WHO HOLDS A STABLE JOB AND INCOME IN THE FUTURE. The thing now is if i cant fucking complete my course the highest qualification i'll be holding will only be a O'level Cert fuck. I dont wanna look stupid and useless. So,what now?
Why not someone just give me some fucking motivation to make things right and maybe i'll feel better?

Oh great, i just remembered something. I'm hitting 20 next year?!! WHAT THE FUCK. Maybe it's no big deal to you la, to me it means alot. Talk is cheap and i know i talk alot, but I havent plan a single shit YET. My future is nearing.... I need some fucking planz. Ju and I happened to hit the topic bout marriage other day and somehow i felt excited bout it. Us in wedding gowns, the last night out before we get officially attached to the other half and most importantly, who will be the groom?!!!!!! I DONT WANNA BE LEFT ON THE SHELVE!!! Before i feel retarded again, i guess i better head to bed now. Goodnight.

2009-07-26T22:15:00.000+08:00

It felt so long, even though its only for 2 days.

Hacked,

2009-07-12T08:58:00.002+08:00

I know kansie's biggest secret nowwwwwwwwww~

Ask iris :p

It's a rewind,

2009-07-09T05:11:00.005+08:00

Good morning all!

Just so you know i partied my last week of holiday away just like that.

28/06/09. Rebel with the girls on Fiona's birthday. One of the best day i had during the 5 weeeks. That girl was dead drunk and was vomitting all over the place,but glad she had fun. <3

One of the few pictures taken, check out the rest at facebook hehe.

Zouk-ed last saturday, and thats how my holiday ended.

School just started and i'm already starting to dread it very much even thou i was there only on monday hahahaha. Can someone who is sick pass me some of your cough or fever? I dont wanna go school ): Making things look worse, it's 6 in the morning now and i've lessons at 11 later. Wondering how am i gonna survive later in class without much sleep,and that's if i'm gonna sleep after this.

How time flies, tomorrow's a friday already! And Kendra's leaving on Sunday....... :( Can you dont go, please?

Do you have a plaster? Because i scraped my knee falling for you.

Im so fat now

2009-06-22T01:59:00.003+08:00

Hoi, sorry for the lack of updates..

I'm on homerun right now. Currently at Bevvy's place. Just had a fucking feast of 20 piece nuggets, 1 apple pie, 1 large fries and 2 large coke(s).Very power i know thank you. Now I feel as thou i've a Kansie junior. I should stop eating this much seriously... My stomach cannot mantain already, dieeeeeeeeee. I'm gaining weight like free i swear. Which means no more going to the beach or nice dresses. Yah,i can go and fuck myself already^^

Spent my past 3 weeks at the east, hibernating at Ju's place, parkway, east coast blah blah.. (EAST SIDE FTW!) And that's when i started gaining more weight. East side = gain weight. Damn sinful...............

Anyway,happy 19th belated birthday to myself. Nothing special bout turning one year older especially when im gonna hit a '2' at the front of my age next year. But the people who celebrated for me definitely made it a special day for me. You know who you are! :)

5 weeks of holidays for me, and 3 weeks had passed. Ju's place became my 2nd home. The times we bathed together, doing almost every single thing together, even doing our business. It made us feel closer, i like!^^ But dont worry Bev and the rest,i still love you guys hehe. Being super random, i feel attached to the 2 dogs at home now hahahaha. And fuck Mafia, he bit and tore my ipod cover and the screen have scratches now! Bloooody hell. But i feel safer with the 2 dogs around when the rest are not home, and that's when Ju left me all alone at her place. At least i know if something freaky is gonna happen or not, the stories and all that had happened before i came.... Okay,i can feel the goosebumps right now. And i just realised i took an hour to update this space. I'm done,time to go. Nights all! Hope you enjoyed your weekend,because i enjoyed mine^^

6 June, 2009

2009-06-07T22:35:00.001+08:00

(Thumbs up)

Lost

2009-06-03T20:14:00.002+08:00

I'm left home alone with 2 dogs without dinner :(

On a happier note, my exams officially ended this afternoon. It's holiday now, for real. It had been a week, not even a single call from them yet. I don't know whether i should feel happy or upset.. Is this what i really what? Or is it just temporary? So lost, so so lost.

"There is more to life than just staying alive."

Such ill luck

2009-05-30T12:36:00.004+08:00

Things are getting from bad to worse, very nice.

It's bad enough i got debarred from exams, and the fact that i got kicked outta the house because i sucked at lying. And the fucking thousands of slaps and lectures i got before i left home. I totally forgotten bout my teacher's existence, how dumb. Ya lor.....homeless hopeless wandering kid. To come and think of it i have never ever expected this to happen to me, even though i thought it will only happen in drama series...

Hmmm. Maybe it's time for me to be independent..? Hahahaha, what the fuck. I just laughed at myself when i typed that. Well, I've already starting working actually.. But my mom doesn't like the job. Yah la i know lah, who wants their daughter to promote beer and stuff? I know you care because you dont want anything bad to happen to me. But seriously fucking no choice, not like i've a rich parents who gives me alot of money. I'm sorry. My bad for spending much,only having myself to blame for being stupid to start smoking all. Okay kansie shut the fuck up now and stop eating so much.

Anyway, this made my day when Clara called....... My teacher wants to give me a chance to take my exams. Which i'm supposed to write another appeal letter againz. Fucking hell,exams on monday and i was only informed yesterday. Which means i only have fucking 3 days to study everything. Eh no,2 days in exact. See lah, act smart act as if i cant be bothered and all now like that wtf. And seriously, fuck my right toe. The ingrown is still there.

Okay,i need some sleep. My eyebags weigh a total of 50kg i think. Thank god it rained just now thats why i get to stay in,if not i will be at sentosa right now. Toodles~

L4D craze

2009-05-27T20:29:00.007+08:00

Tell me how am i supposed to clear 30 hours of lessons i missed within these 2 days when my exams is this monday.

Cannot finish clearing equals to being debarred from my exams, which means self declared holidays for me! ^^ Niceeeee, i like.

Anyhow, town yesterday with the girls. Let the pictures do the talking!

I'm sick of everything i'm doing right now.. I lost my motivation for school. Someone save me please, thanks.

And i've fucking ingrown nail in my toe,fuck.

Updatezzz

2009-05-16T12:42:00.003+08:00

Life's still the same, and boringz. Schoool, exams, work, late nightouts.
The weekly old routine goes on and on..........
I'm tired, i need some space to breathe.
Give me X and take me away.

Monday 'pinks',

2009-05-13T00:43:00.004+08:00

I feel very fortunate to have these people around me. You know who you're. ♥

B, F, K, S

2009-05-12T00:10:00.002+08:00

Nothing beats having the 4 of you girls with me.

Rainbow after the storm. Hope we can stay this close for as long as we can, without any conflicts.

<3

Ouch.

2009-05-04T01:29:00.003+08:00

At certain times, people do things on impulse.

You can buy something on impulse and refund maybe, but you cant 'refund' the things you've already did.

Dont say things when you dont mean it, you wont know how much it hurts because you're not me.

So much for being there.

Cass's Smashing 19th birthday

2009-04-29T19:36:00.010+08:00

Last weekend was spent over at Frz's condo, and that was the last house party! ):

WE HAD A GREAT TIME!

-

I miss you. How?

2009-04-29T18:42:00.002+08:00

Come closer.....

Hope this made your day.

Hi.

2009-04-16T00:49:00.000+08:00

Bye.

2009-04-11T05:27:00.003+08:00

2 more days before my holiday gonna end.

So much had happened, i know even if i'm to regret or so it's too late i guess.
I'm sorry best, i disappointed you big time.
I've never expected this day to come, i thought it was perfect because you made me felt that you were the best of the best. Never would i thought that the misunderstandings we had pulled us so wide apart.
You believe what you see,actions speaks louder than words to you. So i know no matter what i say it wont help.

We've came this far, and i dont want this to come to an end.

And the 3 of you girls as well.

Banana apple pear

2009-03-24T01:48:00.009+08:00

Hello i'm backkkkkkkkkkkkkkk.

I think i'm weird. I cant seem to sleep for long hours anymore ): Have been sleeping late and getting up early recently. And guess what, my 3 weeks of holidays just started today. Hehehehehehe happy! Which means i wont be deprived from my sleep anymore.

Spent my first day of my holiday at the beach. A fruitful one.
Met Sam and the rest at Vivo, i thought i was the only one who was late. While waiting for the two kings to come, someone's pants tore.HAHAHAHAHAHA!!
Was supposed to meet at 10am, and ya we ended up reaching the beach at around 2. Luckily the sun is good, if not i confirm whack Alfred and Corn.

Anyway, this is Sam! :)

Played volleyball properly for the first time in my life.
"Please dont tell others that your CCA is volleyball please."
The fun and laughter we had made my day, even though im burnt. :)

These 3 confirm like to show off.

Hi Alfred,your face very classic hahahahhahahahahahaha

Self proclaimed Volleyball coach.

Walau,it had been almost a year ever since i last gotten myself burnt. I thought i swore to myself i dont wanna get tanned anymore,what a lie. Hahahahha bloody hell, my whole body is burning red and i'm back to the malay look once again.

Dinner at the market. Poor Ooi found a caterpillar inside his soup only after he had finished 3/4 of it. HAHAHAHAH. After that followed by a long walk from Vivo to Jewel Box,then Henderson waves. Card games with forfeit, damn violent i swear. Then home sweet home!

I had funnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn today and i wanna end this post with our class pic.

Goodnightzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz all.

Overdue,

2009-03-09T00:28:00.002+08:00

Vday '09,

2009-02-16T20:50:00.005+08:00

The very sweet brownie, roses, cookies, hugs and texts ❤
I feel ultimately loved.

*

Vday was well spent because i was with my favourite girls on earth. Definitely one of the best days after months of misery i had. :)
Town, followed by BQ.
5-10, up or down, lost, drank and not drunk. Unlike some lousy bitch who vomitted outside the pub after drinking graveyard. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Vehly sweet.

Lustf & bitch.

One of the two pathetic photos i was in, cannot even see my face!!!!?

Vehly nice pic ju, your TT face. Konfirm kiks.

Home and died.

-

Sunday,

Slept half my day away.
Met up with my girls,worm and yellow juice at town.

Left4Dead.
I shot Konfirm kick and Fionlust.
Tank killed Cansee at least thrice.
IBITEYOU watched us died without helping.

We were so engrossed until we totally forgotten bout the time! Reached home at around 3 and i woke up late today, but luckily i was on time.
School's good,for now.
Hi eyecandy :)

Harpy Bird Day,

2009-02-12T14:36:00.006+08:00

BEVERLY TEE SHU JUN ❤

Words cant express how much this friendship of ours mean to me.

Best i ever had and want to,even after 50 years.

Flyday,

2009-02-10T01:11:00.002+08:00

I wish for this moment to stay forever.

It's deep and meaningless,

2009-01-24T00:38:00.000+08:00

I don't know why I miss you so much
I don't know why I still feel your touch
You left me feeling high and dry
With nothing, nothing but the question why

Yeah you, I guess you had another direction
And leaving me with nothing but a dead connection


If you call me today
I'll say that I'm fine
But I bet you can tell by the tone of my voice
It's just a lie
You knew what you had
You still walked away leaving me in this mess
My love for you is deep and meaningless

You knew what you were doing to me
And I, I guess I was too blind to see
Well you hit where it hurt and you fooled me so bad
But I'd do it again to relive what we had

There are many things left to remind me
Of a love that I just can't leave behind me


I miss you so,daryl.

2009-01-17T11:47:00.003+08:00

Very very disppointed.

Satisfied

2009-01-14T21:17:00.003+08:00

Sorry for being away..

A little update for you bout my school life.

The new friends i made made my first 4 days of school good, and i hope this will carry on for the next 11 months,except the hundred of pages of theory work i've to memorize.

Till then,life's good.

Like ke finally

2009-01-07T20:35:00.003+08:00

I'm not school-less anymore, finally.

Beauty Therapy at College East.
I'm starting school this friday, and i dont think i'm prepared for it at all.
FKING EXCITED,NEVER HAD THIS FEELING FOR SO LONG ALREADY!

Anyway, i need to pass my medical test before i'm officially a student of the school. So meanwhile i'll just need to pray hard that my medical report is good,heh.

OKAY I GO JUMP FOR JOY ALREADY,BYEBYE!

Hi

2009-01-07T02:17:00.001+08:00

Cutting down on nightlife, i'm trying.

Happy 2009 all

2009-01-05T02:50:00.002+08:00

Nothing constructive was done back in 2008, besides wasting my life away slacking.

A new year, which means new start, i hope.

I dont see anything ahead of me because i dont have any plans.
I feel embarrassed whenever i'm asked which school i'm from, because i belong no where.
I envy other people who've big dreams, because they already had their future planned whereas i'm not.

I ought to spare a thought of myself of what i wanna do in the future, at the very least when people ask me what i gonna do i can tell them proudly what i want.

And guess what,i'm gonna go enrol for ITE tomorrow. And i hope for the better, this year. :)

On a happier note,things between us had gradually became better.
I know it's hard for things to be the same as before, at least the both of us is trying very hard to keep this flame going, still, even thou many unpleasant things had happened. I love you very much.
Anyway, greatly appreciated if outsiders step aside and not interfere with our matters.

Whatever it is, great year ahead for all. Night

2008-12-28T22:09:00.002+08:00

It's really confusing me at times how complicated your mind can get.

2008-12-22T21:23:00.002+08:00

Lifeless as it seems,
where's the spices?

2008-12-22T21:18:00.000+08:00

I want to go out.

4 more...

2008-12-20T20:18:00.000+08:00

.........days. I cant wait,

3rd,

2008-12-15T01:50:00.002+08:00

It had been 3days since you left for NS, i miss you so.

/
Stop trying to get in between,it wont work.

Welcome back

2008-12-03T18:43:00.001+08:00

Kendra's back and we had fun last night.

2008-12-01T20:50:00.001+08:00

I've been cooping myself at home for 2days already.

I need some fresh air........

2008-12-01T00:45:00.000+08:00

Some words are better left unsaid.

2008-11-25T02:45:00.001+08:00

Sleepless nights, yet again.

I feel so lonely, why?

Morning!

2008-11-24T05:08:00.003+08:00

It's 5.24AM now, so.... Good morning all.

Baby's asleep while i'm still awake. I just finished House Bunny on the net and i'm feeling hungry!
I gonna wake Baby up for breakfast later.

Anyway, it's nearing the end of the month again.
I'm looking forward for a better month, i hope. Even though Baby's going NS real soon, in like 19 days time.............................. Time really flies.

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I've been very temperamental and paranoid these days, and i'm feeling very irritated by someone whom i dont know.
And yes, i need to vent my anger now, very much.

2008-11-17T03:06:00.001+08:00

It have been such a long time ever since i felt this way..

Why cant i get to sleep?

Let them know,

2008-11-10T17:43:00.003+08:00

The ache is so bad, it almost took my life.
I thought i could have just died at that moment.
Yesterday, someone i dont know told me life is wonderful when he walked past me.
I'm sorry to tell you i cannot accept the truth. No, that's a lie...... No no no..... Stop lying to me.

Sometimes we lie to the ones we love because we are afraid to tell people of our feelings for them. Did you?

A little story i read on the net,

One fine day, an old couple around the age of 70, walks into a lawyer's office.
Apparently, they are there to file a divorce.

Lawyer was very puzzled, after having a chat with them, he got their story....
This couple had been quarreling all their 40 over yrs of marriage nothing ever seems to go right.

They hang on because of their children, afraid that it might affect their up-bringing. Now, all their children have already grown up, have their own family, there's nothing else the old couple have to worry about, all they wanted is to lead their own life free from all these years of unhappiness from their marriage, so both agree on a divorce....

Lawyer was having a hard time trying to get the papers done, because he felt that after 40 yrs of marriage at the age of 70, he couldnt understand why the old couple would still want a divorce..

While they were signing the papers, the wife told the husband..
"I really love u, but i really cant carry on anymore, I'm sorry.."
"Its o.k, i understand.." said the husband. Lookin at this, the lawyer suggested a dinner together, just 3 of them,wife thought, why not, since they are still gonna be friends..

At the dining table, there was a silence of awkardness.
The first dish was roasted chicken, immediately, the old man took the drumstick for the old lady.."take this, its your favourite.."

Looking at this, the lawyer thought maybe theres still a chance, but the wife was frowning when she answer.."
This is always the problem, you always think so highly of yourself, never thought about how I feel, dont you know that i hate drumsticks?"

Little did she know that, over the years, the husband have been trying all ways to please her, little did she know that drumsticks was the husband's favourite. Little did he know that she never thought he understand her at all, little did he know that she hates drumsticks even though all he wants is the best for her.

That night, both of them couldnt sleep, toss and turn, toss and turn...after hours, the old man couldnt take it anymore, he knows that he still loves her, and he cant carry on life without her, he wants her back, he wants to tell her, he is sorry, he wanted to tell her "i love you"...

He picks up the phone, starting dialing her number....ringing never stops..he never stop dialing....

On the other side, she was sad, she couldn’t understand how come after all these years, he still doesnt understand her at all, she loves him a lot, but she just cant take it anymore....phone's ringing, she refuses to answer knowing that its him..."whats the point of talking now that its over...i have ask for it and now i wanna keep it this way, if not i will lose face.."she thought...still ringing...she have decided to pull out the cord...

Little did she remember, he have heart problems...

The next day, she received news that he had passed away...she rushed down to his apartment, saw his body, lying on the couch still holding on to the phone...he had a heart attack when he was still trying to get through her phone line....

As sad as she could be...she will have to clear his belongings...when she was looking thru the drawers, she saw this insurance policy, dated from the day they got married, with the beneficiary being her... And together in those file, there was this note...

"To my dearest wife, by the time you're reading this, I'm sure I'm no longer around, I bought this policy for you, though the amount is only $100k, I hope it will be able to help me continue my promise that i have made when we got married, I might not be around anymore, I want this amount of money to continue taking care of you, just like the way I will if I could have live longer. I want you to know I will always be around, by your side... I love you"

Tears flowed like river......

"When you love someone, let them know... You never know what will happen the next minute.... Learn to build a life together.. Learn to love each other. For who they are.. not what they are..."

Love for 100 days

2008-11-10T17:36:00.003+08:00

Peter and Tina are sitting in the park doing nothing, but just gazing into the sky, while all their friends are having fun with their beloved half.
Tina: I'm so bored. Just wish I have a boyfriend now to spend time with.
Peter: I guess we're the only leftovers. We're the only person who isn't with a date now.
(both sigh n silence for a while)
Tina: I think I have a good idea. Lets play a game
Peter: Eh? What game?
Tina: Eem..It's quite simple. You be my boyfriend for 100 days and I'll be your girlfriend for 100 days. what do you think?
Peter: Oookay..Anyway I don't have any plan for the next few months.
Tina: You sound like you aren't looking forward to it at all. Cheer up. Today will be our first day and our first date. Where should we go?
Peter: What about a movie? I heard that there is a really great movie in theater now.
Tina: Seems like I don't have any better idea than this. Lets move. (went to watch their movies and sent each other home)

Day 2:
Peter and Tina went to a concert together, and Peter bought Tina a keychain with a star.

Day 3:
They went shopping together for a friend's birthday present. Share an ice-cream together and hugged each other for the first time.

Day 7:

Peter drove Tina up onto a mountain and they watch the sunset together. When the night came and the moon glowed, they said sat on the grass gazing at the stars together. A meteor passed by. Tina mumbled something.

Day 25:
Spend time at a themepark and got onto rollercoasters, and ate hotdogs and cotton candy. Peter and Tina got in the haunted house and Tina grabbed someone's hand instead of Peter's hand by accident. They laughed together
for a while.

Day 67:
They drove pass a circus and decided to get in to watch the show. The midget asked Tina to play a part as his assistant in the magic show. Went around to see other entertainments around after the show. Came to a fortune teller and she just said "Treasure every moment from now on" and a tear rolled down the fortune teller's cheek.

Day 84:
Tina suggested that they go to the beach. The beach wasn't so crowded that day. They have their first kiss with each other just as the sun is setting.

Day 99:
They decided to have a simple day and is deciding to have a walk around the city. They sits down onto a bench.

1:23 pm
Tina: I'm thirsty. Lets rest for a while first.
Peter: Wait here while I go buy some drinks. What would you like?
Tina: Eem...Apple juice will be just fine.

1:43 pm
Tina waiting for about 20 minutes and Peter havent return. Then someone walked up to her.
Stranger: Is your name Tina?
Tina: Yes, and may I help you?
Stranger: Just now down there on the street a drunk driver has crashed into a guy. I think its your friend.
Tina ran over to the spot with the stranger and sees Peter lying on the floor with blood over his face and her apple juice still in his hands. The ambulance came and she went to the hospital with Peter. Tina sat outside the emergency room for five and a half hours. The doctor came out, and he sigh.

11:51 pm
Doctor: I'm sorry, but we did the best we could. He is still breathing now but God would take him away from us very soon. We found this letter inside his pocket.

The doctor hands over the letter to Tina and she goes into the room to see Peter. He look weak but peaceful. Tina read the letter and then she burst into tears. Here is what the letter said.

Tina,
Our 100 days is almost over. I had fun with you during all these days. Although you may be greedy sometimes and less thoughtful, but these all brought happiness into my life. I have realize that you are a really cute girl and blamed myself for never taken the time to knowing that. I have nothing much to ask for, but I just wish that we can extend the day. I want to be your boyfriend forever and wish that you can be beside me all the time. Tina, I love you.

11:58
Tina: (sobbing) Peter. Did you know what was the wish I made on the night there was a meteor. I asked God to let us last forever. We were suppose to last 100 days so Peter! You can't leave me! I LOVE YOU, but can you come back to
me now? I love you Peter. I LOVE YOU.

As the clock struck twelve, Peter's heart stopped beating. It was 100 days.

Dont leave,,

2008-11-04T18:16:00.003+08:00

After much consideration, i decided to give B.A.T training a miss because Baby is sick and he wants me to accompany him, partly because i was late too.

The pay was a good one i must say,however i was kinda turned off by the long working hours for consecutively 5 days for the 2 weeks. Besides that,i must wake up as early as 7am and it will only end at around dinner time. I felt bad for telling them i'm able to commit for all the days they need me to be there,but i guess they wont want someone who is that irresponsible. Skipping the training twice is as good as giving up the job actually. No training means product idiot, so i cant do the promo. On a happier note, i get to spend more time with Baby before he's bald.

/
12 Dec, the day you'll leave for NS. I cant imagine me without you :(
The day after that will be our 5th month together you know, how time flies.

So cursed, like a broken fairytale

2008-11-03T20:10:00.003+08:00

I thought the whole of last week had been cursed.

I was right, October was a unpleasant month for me. I'm glad that it's over as a new month awaits me, hope things will go smoothly like never before. At least things are slightly better as compared to those disturbing moments i had, well, nevertheless a good start. Those who stood by me, words can't express how thankful i'm but i just wanna let you guys know you're all appreciated.

/
I've been wanting to pour out my feelings all the while.. Not because i doesn't have any mood to do so, it's because i dont have any chance to.

I need to go now, bye.

/Edited,
Happy 52th birthday Daddy! ♥

2008-10-27T08:10:00.003+08:00

I'm feeling sorry and disappointed with myself, because i failed.
I did my best to keep the flame going.............................................

Tell me it's not the end,save me from my misery please.

:'(

Daryl baby,

2008-10-20T01:57:00.007+08:00

You mean so much to me, do you know that? I love it when you put your arms around me, to hug me tight. I want all these to remain as it is right now, i want you to hold my hand and hold me close. As long as we stay close together, i dont mind the bad times we had, because i still have you by my side. ♥

High School Musical is back!

2008-10-17T01:06:00.002+08:00

Aint you guys excited bout it? Well, i'm..... I totally love them all! Especially Zac Efron, he's such a cutie pie ;)

Its finally their senior year at High school.... I wonder how their graduation will be like.

Speaking bout graduation. It's been 2 years since then. I can still remember clearly how badly i did for it and kinda regretted not mugging hard. I was expression-less when my teacher handed me my results. I couldn't even get into a poly, because i only have 4 credits. Pathetic. Yeah, i even planned which poly i wanted to get in and my hopes were all dashed though. But my Grad night was a blast! Everyone came in looking their best, and i guess it was the best night ever throughout the 4 years. The crowning of Prom Queen and King, heavy sessions of cam-whoring and most importantly the people around me..

Yes,it had been 2 years since i last seen the most of them. We were whinning bout how much we wanted to get out of secondary school life and right now i'm starting to miss school. How silly.. Anyway i gonna get my ass back to school next year, hopefully, to Simei ITE for Beauty Therapy course. All the best to me people!

Oh ya,and remember to catch Walt Disney Pictures' High School Musical 3: Senior Year in cinemas from October 24! Dont miss it.

2008-10-15T19:28:00.001+08:00

It's such a pity our friendship ended this way.................

Such a pity.

Running outta time,

2008-10-15T02:02:00.001+08:00

I'm drained, i need to sleep and i miss Daryl. ♥

Happy 3rd month baby

2008-10-13T01:30:00.002+08:00

3 months passed like the wind, as thou i've known you forever.

Every moment spent with you was precious to me, even thou there's quarrels in between. But i know the love will be even stronger because i'm loving you more each day baby. We've crossed so much obstacles and i believe we'll stay strong like this till the end. We'll have each other no matter what. I ♥ you, Daryl.

Fuck the world

2008-10-09T02:00:00.002+08:00

Somehow i feel incomplete without a job, or maybe i should just get my ass back to school.
I felt like a total idiot when i couldn't even do a simple maths question, oh my. Tell me how please..

Anyway, life was great recently, expect the part where i felt incomplete without a job that is. Full time job i mean, whereby those times i need to force myself to wake up for work, crap. Ahhhh.

I wish i can be packed with events, many many of them. (I promise i wont be late!)
Because i'm not allowed to club, and that's the only thing i used to do to kill time. I'm a nocturnal animal... What else can we do in Singapore after midnight besides clubbing or pubbing?

It's a wednesday night, ok logically thursday already, which spells ladies night. Free entry to most clubs! St.James is offering 5 free drinks for ladies... Yummy. Yet i'm here blogging...

To end the misery earlier, i'm gonna head to bed right now. Nights to all!

2nd round of boozing,

2008-10-07T02:37:00.002+08:00

The music plays; I'm boozing, im boozing..........................

That's right. The 2nd round of Erdinger Oktoberfest had just ended last weekend.

More chaotic this time round.... More crowd means more booze and still booze. I managed to take a sip of the German beer and it really tasted very nice! And i'm not supposed to drink or eat during work time, but i think it's ok to break the rules sometimes.

The last day of work was a very lucky day for me, shall not mention much lest i get myself into trouble or something.

My feets are still aching because of long standing hours, partly because of the boots too. Hard work will be paid off pretty soon, because the pay is coming in already! Hehe $$

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It was a splendid weekend for me. How bout yours?

Tonight,

2008-10-01T20:21:00.003+08:00

This will go on forever........

Stop trying.

2008-09-24T02:24:00.002+08:00

It doesn't matter if someone looks ugly to you, but well, i think there's no need for you to criticize them because it's not their fault for looking this way. And the main thing is, it doesn't concern you at all.

What's with those people who're bringing Daryl down?

You feel better after saying things like that?
You wanna embarrass him?
Or you just dislike him?

Whatever it is, it wont affect him a single bit i know..
And you're equivalent to those losers out there who're just jealous and dislikes him.
Maybe i shouldn't use the word 'jealous', just in case some losers gonna say that there's nothing for them to be jealous about as he is....................... (Anything bad you wanna mention about.)

Anyway, do you know what it means by calling someone a nothing?
It means someone of little or no importance; a nobody.
And do you know what it means by calling someone a loser?
Its means the one that fails to win.

And who're you to call someone a nothing, be it whether you know him well or not?
Indeed, you're a nobody to call him nothing, which makes you a nothing.
Stop trying so hard to bring people down, it doesn't do you any good.

At the end of the day you'll be the one losing out, so please. Dont make a fool outta yourself here.
If you're not happy, i suggest you just leave this page.

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I'm blogging bout this issue right now because i hope these people would stop wasting their time here and do something meaningful like getting their facts right and know what's right for them.

Erdinger OktoberFest '08

2008-09-23T21:20:00.003+08:00

The event was held at Swiss Club. I thought there will only be like 20 more or less people working for this event (as in just us the girls), to my surprise there were 100 or more part-timers as well of both genders.

WOOOOOOOOOo, i'll be getting the pay at the end of the month. $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$

Picture taken before the event started. The two lucky guys surrounded by the babes. HAHA
My hair wasn't plaited yet (ugly!) because i was late, and no. It wasn't my fault that i was late.... It was a last min decision that they want me there.... So had to rush down. And this is the only picture i managed to find while blog hopping.

Anyway the event was a blast! Booze, booze and still booze!

More than 50% of the crowd wasn't locals.. Almost all the people were high, to the extent that some even went up the table top and danced! Super 'high' atmosphere for the two nights.

Our main jobscope was to serve them beer, duh. And i was amazed by the rest of the girls who managed to carry 3 or even 4 beers with one hand and the same number on other hand. I was struggling even with 2 beers already, what a loser. Wwwwwweak. And our legs are tired from standing and walking for straight 5hours?!!!!!!!!!!?

.
.

Someone ask me to stop complaining please.

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Oh yah, i'll be working at Changi Airbase this coming friday for their camp event.
MORE EVENTS PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE $$$$$$$

Time check 2:15am. I need some sleep, till then stay tuned! Goodnight.

Re: Friends or Girlf/Boyf?

2008-09-15T18:47:00.003+08:00

Oh wow, i can see many comments at my tag board.

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So I've see most of the people or rather ALL of them have chosen friends to boyf/girlf.

Yes, i must agree that some of the reasons given by you guys are really true.

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..
...

Friends
_______

It's often heard and said that friendship always last longer than a relationship.
Uh huh, the percentage of a lasting friendship is always higher than a lasting relationship.

You tell me girlfriends are forever, boyfriends are not.
Y'know, different situations varies. It's not always like this.

Let's talk bout it.
To me, true friends always attempt to ask me out despite knowing i'll be spending most of my time with my boyfriend.
True friends will support any decision i make.
True friends will NOT speak bad to me bout my boyfriend. Instead, they tell me good things bout him. Yah, you guys must be thinking i'm living in a world of denial. Let's see, human minds... It's truely complicated and you wont know what they're thinking. Sometimes i'm even confused bout the way i see things. Do you know how easily a person can get influenced? Very. Maybe not for a someone who have a very determined mindset, good for you then.

Its like you're thinking bout this something initially and planning to do this, someone comes over to you and tell you that you shouldn't. He/She gives you a whole lot of reasons why you shouldn't, and at the end of it, he/she says its up to you. He/she is just giving you advices because they treat you as a good friend. Please do not tell me that you'll not brood over whatever he/she says because i'm definitely sure you'll. Ok,maybe not brood. But i'm sure it sure crossed your mind at least once hence affecting your decision. Am i right to say that? See,this is how influential people can be....

Of course i'm not saying that i'll choose my boyfriend if i do not have any true friends. Ask yourself, have you ever told a bad thing to your friend bout their boyf/girlf? I'm pretty sure i did, i admit. Saying that they're ugly, that they don't deserve someone so good for them and all......... You see, sometimes it's just out of plain jealousy. Sour grapes.

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Boyf/Girlf
_________

Some people prefer single hood to being attached.

Why?
Because they'll have more freedom to do anything they like, etc clubbing.
Tell me whose boyfriend like their girlfriend to go clubbing?
Err, if you do then I've nothing to say.

I used to club alot, because i love to listen to the music and dance that's all. But Baby will always come up with all the excuses just to persuade me not to go.
"Later people grind you how?"
"How you know they wont grind you?"
"Don't want ah, i don't like."
"Cannot cannot, you only can go when i go."

He cares for me i know, that's why you rarely see me in clubs now or you don't even get to see me at all, maybe only when he's around. See, isn't it good to have someone to care for you?

You cant compare a normal friend with your boyf/girlf, really.
Friends cant give you the lovely dovey feeling....
That's what i think? I'm not sure bout you.

I prefer being attached because i'm very dependent. I need someone to rely on, to give me that lovely dovey feeling which friends cannot give me. Are you like me?

\

hello2: if u think ur ur daryl's whole world. u're damn wrong. sooner of later, u'll know why.
psb: friends. because your boyfriend is a flirt kia.

I really dont understand why these people like to bring others down by saying such a sentence.
Yes, Daryl's my world. What's wrong with that? I dont think you gain anything by saying that isn't it? I bet you dont know my boyfriend well enough, because i know he's not.
Why do people like to judge someone whom they dont know when they gain nothing from it?

Like i said, jealousy brings critics.
Ok, let's just skip this part and move on.

When someone is in love, there're only the 2 of them in their world.
I love the feeling of being loved, and i love to love too.
Moreover its only the 2nd month for us, the so-called 'honeymoon' period. So i dont see any reasons why i cant spend more time with my boyfriend now. I believe we wont be spending much time together as before because Daryl's going NS soon..... And we're only gonna meet like once a week at the period of time?
I'm sorry for neglecting you guys right now. Please understand.

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Both is equally important to me actually.
But of course i love Daryl more :)

Friends or Girlf/Boyf?

2008-09-14T04:53:00.001+08:00

If you're only allowed to choose one between friendship and relationship, what is your choice?

^^

2008-09-13T05:01:00.001+08:00

13th July is a significant day to me, which is like 2 months ago. It marks the 2nd month for me and Daryl today. Hehehehehehe i love you many x9724392739823.

2008-09-09T17:46:00.003+08:00

If we're not given any chances to present and prove ourselves now, are we gonna be given opportunities the next time or not because we're of not enough experience?

Dear Daryl,

2008-09-08T15:58:00.002+08:00

Baby, do you know how much i love you?

Actually i dont know it myself either, because our love is beyond words and can't be measured.

Last week's

2008-09-08T15:16:00.001+08:00

My girls! (Without Fiona)

2008-09-06T21:10:00.001+08:00

Do you know how much it hurts each time you ask me whether if i love you alot and whether im your priority or not, and in my heart i very much wanna tell you it's a YES.

Criticism doesn't work,

2008-09-05T16:22:00.009+08:00

Whats with the criticism?

"Your face abit weird leh."
"Your nose very ugly!"
"You've huge thighs."
"You're very fat!"
"Your complexion very bad sia."
"Your hair like grass, so dry!"

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I thought for awhile before deciding to post up this entry.

I find it rather unfair actually, because no one can decide how they wanna look like or be like when they come out from their mom's stomach. Oh yea, some people really have perfect features..... Big dreamy eyes, small sharp nose, straight and nice set of teeth. Nice bod as well.

Yah yah.... I only have my mom to blame, because she doesnt give me the looks i want.
Oh no, i should actually thank my mom instead. WE OUGHT TO.. At least we're not born without a limb or arm. We're the LUCKY and FORTUNATE ones......

Back on track.

Speaking of being beautiful, i dont think its the path to everything.
"Yah, if you don't think being beautiful is everything why you apply make-up for?"

Because i've more confidence in myself with make-up on.

Okay, i admit i look fugly without any makeup. Neither did i admit i look pretty with make-up on? At least i ain't lazy. I take time to do things to make myself look better,well to me at least.

To me, i think BEING CONFIDENT = PRETTY.

I dont see you people gaining anything from pin-pointing and criticising people who're of less-lucky. Maybe you guys will feel much better because you're actually consoling yourself on the other hand. Like i said, no one is born perfect. Even if they look perfect on the outer, they might NOT have any inner beauty. Which totally failed them to become a perfect person.

My personal points of view:
(Not trying to pin-point anyone right here. Freedom of speech)

- I think girls who think they're pretty think too highly of themselves.
- They choose their friends, im sure. (This happened to my friend)
- I guess they only wanna mix around with people of their kind, so that they wont be mocked at by other groups of girls of the same kind.

So happened to be, i often get stares by those kind of girls. You know... When pretty babes walked past, you just cant help not to look at them..... Hoping that you'll look like them someday, ungratefully returned by some kind of you-will-never-get-to-hang-out-with-us stare.

Models eh..... Showgirls........ Cant admit the fact that i'm dying to be one of them too, but i dont have any chance to. Ya ya.... sour grapes. Too bad for me then.

I'm glad that my friends doesnt choose the people they hang out with.
(Because your friends also ugly what, no choice)
At least my friends isn't realistic. They ain't ugly by the way.
Ya, i see you girls telling the world how true and genuine your friendship is....
I bet people are comparing which of you looks better, and in no time everyone can smell jealousy between the either one of you. Let's see........

Babes, being pretty isn't everything. Yes it sure does, gives you fame but the attitude isn't there, which makes you a bimbo. A loser actually.

Cherish what you have,

2008-09-03T20:26:00.003+08:00

I chose to drift away,

but no one held me back.

You're the best still,

2008-09-02T14:47:00.004+08:00

A splendid weekend spent at Baby's place.

*Plastiqueamour.blogspot.com

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It's always after the strong winds, dark clouds, heavy storm...
then the Rainbow.

Baby, we've come this far and much i hope we'll stay the way we're now. I ♥ you.

Sigh,

2008-08-31T20:40:00.000+08:00

I'm so disappointed.

Thanks for making my day,

2008-08-29T16:44:00.002+08:00

Baby, you're still the best player to me even though you lost.

Clicknetwork.tv

2008-08-28T12:40:00.003+08:00

Hello people....

I spent my whole boringzxsx afternoon watching videos on Clicknetwork.tv/ just to kill time.

You guys should watch the videos. I find it entertaining.